The Blue Apatite Forum: a community to discuss feedback, interpretations, and experiences with this message set
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Affirmations
Meditative
Action
Divine Messages
For all cards: Click on any card to open the full-size image. What stands out to you about the imagery and/or message? Ask Spirit if there’s anything particular they want you to notice and then observe if anything new stands out to you. Recording these reactions in writing is highly recommended, along with anything you experience that synchronizes with the cards or brings out new insights about the imagery and/or messages.
Main themes:
- Breaking out of “stuck” energy through intuition, faith, and gratitude
- Cultivating inner peace in order to achieve the balance needed to identify the right action to move forward
- The importance of authenticity and being true to yourself for moving in the right direction
Crystals/stones highlighted: blue apatite, aquamarine, lepidolite
Numbers highlighted: 1, 4, 4, 5, 6, 6, 8, 8, 9, 10, 12, 18, 21, 26, 32, 33, 37, 37, 38, 47, 49, 65
Overall numeric energy: 1 + 4 + 4 + 5 + 6 + 6 + 8 + 8 + 9 + (1) + (3) + (9) + (3) + (8) + (5) + 33 + (1 + 0) + (1 + 0) + (11) + (11) + (1 + 3) + (11) = 143
Angel Number 143: You have known your guardian angel for lifetimes. Meditate and ask your soul to reveal helpful memories. ~from “Angel Numbers” by Kyle Gray
(1 + 4 + 3) = 8: Is the manifestation number. It stands for practicality and organization. ~from “Sacred Geometry Activations” guidebook
In tarot: Regeneration, rebirth, re-evaluating, putting things in order, setting priorities; you’re sorting through the options experienced at the 7 level in order to decide what to keep and what to release; think regeneration, renewal. ~from “Power Tarot” by Trish MacGregor and Phyllis Vega
Balance (Periwinkle): “I must create before the opportunity disappears.”
A story: Periwinkle is a small-town theater actor with big-time talent. An agent arrives in town and is quite impressed with young Periwinkle. She offers him a contract and he drops everything that once mattered to him to be available for fame. Feeling sure that his big break is coming, he alienates his loved ones. He signs a contract with the agency, but there are no jobs – he is told he must wait for the right one. He learns that waiting for a dream is not as powerful as living a loving reality.
Insight: This card may indicate a reluctance to change. You may be hesitating because of the past – but that doesn’t mean you should be hasty. Weigh all sides before moving forward. This can mean the start of a relationship; proceed slowly.
Inspiration: Running toward something may chase it away. Be wary of being deceived by your own desires.
I take me with me wherever I go. Is there a part of my life that may be out of alignment with who I am? My responses to the following ideas: chasing illusions, health matters, compulsive behavior, dietary imbalance, being results-oriented, self-neglect, honoring values, assistance, courtesy, support.
Personal Inquiry:Journey with Periwinkle. He tells you of the work he had to do to repair past mistakes. He says: “We all end up in the same place, so enjoy your journey.” Sit with him. You will know when it is time to come back.
Meditation:4: Earth Star – Grounding
This deck includes cards for “earth star” (below the root) and “soul star” (above the crown) chakras, and I include them as options to pull for all message sets.
This card promises guidance during a challenging time you are experiencing. If there are specific angels or ascended masters with which you resonate, look to their wisdom for guidance in resolving a current conflict or apparent impasse.
Consider the idea of nature as a temple, facilitating our connection with the Divine and Spirit. Consider this message in combination with the messages of “Peace” and “Dove Spirit” (below)
Make an effort to connect with nature, even in small ways. Simply maintaining a conscious awareness of any aspects of nature in your daily routine will deepen your connection.
My energy is completely grounded into the healing energy of the Earth.
Affirmation:Four of Cups
Boredom, hitting a plateau in a relationship, or, at work, finding yourself in a situation in which you are beginning to feel listless and even stuck.
You may be feeling disillusioned and flat as the expectations you once had don’t materialize. You may feel the need for inspiration or direction, and hope for positive change.
Rather than wait for things to improve dramatically, you can make some small decision that lifts your mood so you can see where to go next.
In what ways does this message ring true for you? What small decision can you make that will help you overcome inertia and begin to move forward? Consider the guidance throughout this message set.
I listen to my heart and follow my knowing.
Affirmation:
XLVII (47): Raven’s Head
Keywords: the initiation, the ordeal, the Work begins
As you step into the Work, travel light. There is no need for additional baggage, literally or metaphorically. Everything you need awaits within the alchemical laboratory.
The Raven, with its trickster spirit, has many symbolic interpretations. It is also linked to the Hierophant card in the tarot, so be on the lookout for a new spiritual teacher or mentor.
Watch Alfred Hitchcock’s movie “The Birds”
Have you experienced an event or epiphany that changed things so profoundly that you can’t go back to life as it was before the shift? If not, is that something you’re seeking?
I have been chosen. I am ready. The moment is now.
Gate 37: Peace
Challenges:
- To find inner peace as the true source of outer peace
- To not let chaos and outer circumstances knock you off your center and disrupt your peace
Mastery:
- The ability to stay connected to sustainable peace and to respond to life by generating peace no matter what is happening in your external reality
- Creating the emotional alignment to make peaceful choices no matter what’s going on in the outer world
Expression when unbalanced:
- Desperately struggling to find peace outside of yourself
- Trying to control the outer world to create inner peace
I am an agent of peace. My being aligned with peace creates an energy of contagious peace around me. I practice holding a peaceful frequency of energy and I respond to the world with an intention of creating sustainable peace.
Resiliency Keys and Further Contemplations:
- What needs to be healed, released, aligned, and brought to my awareness for me to move forward with courage and faith? To be a powerful, deliberate creator? To trust my emotional energy? To ask for what I want and need? To feel powerful in this situation? To make clear and strong choices?
- What habits, practices, and routines do I have that cultivate my inner alignment with sustainable peace?
- When I feel that my outer world is chaotic and disrupted, how do I cultivate inner peace?
- What do I need to do to cultivate a peaceful emotional frequency?
Shadow Work: 9 of Cups
Light aspects: the universe is gifting you your desire, choosing joy, manifested dreams, gratitude, abundance
Shadow aspects: delayed gratification, unfulfilled desires, unmanifested dreams, greed blocking your path, not appreciating the simple things in life, smugness [consider the messages of 4 of cups (above) and Indecision (below)]
While using this message set, observe how light or shadow aspects manifest for you. If you notice the shadow aspects coming up, provide love and reassurance to your ego. Use the affirmation below to help shift your perspective to the light aspects.
I open my grateful heart to the gifts that are coming my way.
Affirmation:Record your experiences with expression of light and/or shadow aspects and with using the affirmation and loving your ego for shifting toward light aspects. What outcomes and/or changes do you observe in yourself and the world around you? Does this shadow work have a positive impact on any “stuck” energy you’ve been experiencing?
Shadow Work: Insight
The eye of the peacock feather is symbolic of your third eye. Both your third eye and your mind must remain open if you wish to receive clear and concise insight.
“Discovery is the journey; insight is the destination.”
~Gary Hamel
Light aspects: aware, realize, open, receptive
Shadow aspects: closed, insular, obstructed, limited
While using this message set, observe how light or shadow aspects manifest for you. If you notice the shadow aspects coming up, provide love and reassurance to your ego. Use the affirmation below to help shift your perspective to the light aspects.
As I open my mind to possibility, the world opens my eyes to the truth.
Affirmation:Record your experiences with expression of light and/or shadow aspects and with using the affirmation and loving your ego for shifting toward light aspects. What outcomes and/or changes do you observe in yourself and the world around you?
33: Take responsibility for your life as a creative adventure.
You are being called to see where you are still harboring negative, harmful emotions toward yourself or others and release them with love. To be a victim in life – someone who feels life is happening to them – is a choice, and when you believe you have been wronged, you have no personal power. You are giving away your own control to outside forces. When you are in victim mentality, you blame, shame, and guilt others and yourself. As Paul Selig says, you can’t be a victim and master at the same time. Step into a creator consciousness energy rather than a victim focus. The creator in you knows you are infinite power and trusts the greater intelligence of life. Everything you experience, pleasant or not, is part of your conscious co-creation because you participate in it by either resisting, accepting, or allowing it. Take full responsibility for your life as a beautiful, bold adventure and dive into your journey by activating your authentic power.
How can I live with more meaning, integrity, and truth? What thoughts are imbalanced and holding me back?
Surrender to Divine Timing
Sometimes divine timing may differ from your ego’s timing. If a goal isn’t manifesting “fast enough” according to your ego, be patient and trust the universal flow.
X (10): Change & 6 of Rainbows: Compromise
Consider the idea of moving toward the more stable center of the wheel in conjunction with the messages of Grounding (above), Peace (above), and Dove Spirit (below). Consider the message of “Compromise” in conjunction with To Dance with Joy and She Rides with Wild Spirit Unbroken (below). This deck gave two cards for this set. Consider how the two messages influence each other.
I find serenity and stability amidst the constant changes of life. I hold true to my values and maintain my integrity as an act of love toward myself and others.
Six of Cups – Gravitational Lens/Distant Galaxies
The six of Cups represents the powerful pull of nostalgia, memories of a time when you were innocent and happy.
Galaxies millions of light years away can appear closer through a phenomenon known as gravitational lensing. Large clusters of galaxies create huge gravitational fields, which deflect the light from even more distant galaxies, rather like a glass lens. This has the effect of magnifying the very distant galaxies, making them visible when they would otherwise be too far away.
The six of cups is the card of nostalgia. Looking back with affection and longing is a positive and happy process but like the gravitational lens, our view of the past can be distorted, making it seem better than it really was. This is a good time to make peace with the past as long as we don’t become lost In romanticized dreams or fall prey to escapism as a way of avoiding the present.
Is dwelling on the past causing “stuck” energy for me? What can I learn from the past? Is there a lesson I can use to move out of “stuck” energy and then let the past go? If there is someone or something from the past that I miss, how can that motivate me to create the future I desire?
Focus
What you see around you is the result of what you focus on. When you direct your thoughts toward good, you attract positive experiences and people into your life; when you focus on what isn’t working, you create even more challenging situations. If you aren’t pleased with the direction of your life, concentrate on what you desire – not on what you don’t want. To develop inner power, gather your internal energy and focus intently on one thing. Being scattered in a myriad of directions dilutes your strength. Devote your attention to your career, your relationships, a hobby, or something that you’re passionate about. Diminish activities that aren’t essential to this goal, and it will be just a matter of time until miracles begin to occur.
Divine and Spirit want you to know:Consider this message as a potential antidote to “stuck” energy.
All of my thoughts are directed toward my highest good!
Affirmation:18: To Dance with Joy
Consider this message as a potential antidote to “stuck” energy, especially in combination with Compromise (above) and She Rides with Wild Spirit Unbroken (below).
Affirmation: I live my soul’s truth and allow myself to finally be who I am among others.
8: Indecision
Which choice to make?
How do I resonate with this energy at this time? Which aspects of the message speak to me? Am I waiting for life to happen to me (Change card above) in order to avoid making a decision?
I release fear and move forward with courage and trust. I have the power to direct my own destiny – now and always.
49: Wise Woman of the Grove – Grace
Does this message change your perspective on and/or feelings about any “stuck” energy you’ve been experiencing?
Spirit says: You can relax and let go, your path is guided. Spiritual nobility is growing within you. The spirit of Grace is softly unfolding in your life. Kindly honor the truth of others, even if you don’t agree or if you know better. The Creator knows the truth.
My path is guided. I have faith that the spiritual nobility growing within me will lead me in the direction that will serve the highest good of everyone involved.
21: Dove Spirit – Be peace
Consider this message in conjunction with Peace, Wise Woman of the Grove, and To Dance with Joy (above), as well as She Rides with Wild Spirit Unbroken (below).
My compassionate heart is beautiful and powerful.
Unleash: Hold nothing back, expand into the universe.
Reflect: Peer into the endless ocean and see what peers back.
Nature: Reconnect with nature – feel the sun on your skin. Walk barefoot on the grass.
Wise Action: There is something you can do. Consult your heart to understand how to act with wisdom: through prayer, thoughtful speech, forgiveness, or taking a step. Do what you can. Surrender all else.
“You will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”
“Commit everything you do to the Lord, trust Him, and He will help you.”
38: Honesty is Essential
Affirmation: I speak with love and truth.
Explore the details in the imagery of this card and see what speaks to you.
[Another deck that gave two cards to this set.]
12: Have Faith
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Affirmation: I trust my faith in this situation.
Explore the details in the imagery of this card and see what speaks to you.
Consider the many synchronicities these “mini messages” have with each other and the other cards in this set, above and below. Do you feel like clear guidance is taking shape for you to overcome any “stuck” energy you are experiencing? Why or why not?
Affirmation: I am grace. I am centered. I am clear in my mind. I expect the best.
Advanced Practice: Light
65: The Breaking
Love
Love is a special closeness
That sings from the heart
That warms my days and nights
That feels good
That makes me smile
That makes me glad
To be,
alive
~Richard Cohn
26: She Rides with Wild Spirit Unbroken
You are a wild spirit. No matter how often you have been told “no,” been suppressed by rules and regulations, been denied the right to speak your crazy beautiful truths, inside of you beats a persistent, loving heart that will not be denied. I knew that the wild joy in you would soon kick off its shackles of shame. I knew that no amount of criticism or disrespect could ever break the spirit of your heart. I knew that, even if you doubted that at times, deep inside the heart there was a spirit so wild that it could never be tamed. I know that it is only ever a matter of time before your wild spirit will rise and be free.
Explore the many synchronicities between this message and the rest of this set, as well as its impact on your perspective regarding any “stuck” energy you are experiencing.
The Healing Process:
(You can replace any of the entities addressed in these prayers with the terms that are the most meaningful to you.)
Place one hand on your stomach, heart or wherever feels right for you, and say this prayer, aloud if possible:
“I call upon wild Kuan Yin who loves me without condition: I love myself and I commit to live as myself, true to myself, and to fulfill my soul journey this lifetime. I am so grateful to be who I am, divinely created for perfect purpose. Through your merciful presence, all scars heal, all unforgiveness melts away, and I am free from shame and doubt to live as me. I surrender all conditioning that would inhibit my personal and spiritual growth, now, one layer at a time, with your help. I give myself unconditional permission to be me and to enjoy being me! I choose to set myself free! So be it.”
You have completed your healing process.
Advanced Practice: Shadow
1: Your Fear
The image, as explained by the guidebook: The artwork was originally painted by hand by Teal Swan while deep in trance states. Each card acts as a berth for a specific Sigil. The difference between a symbol and a Sigil is that a Sigil is not representing anything. Instead, the Sigil itself is like a body for a specific essence, entity, or Spirit. Each Sigil has the capacity to influence you (like a teacher or guide) and make you aware relative to the specific blind spot it has chosen to be assigned to. You are asked to invite the special essence of the Sigil into your life in order to help you.
Accepting your ego’s fears with love may also help you move forward.
Consider this message in the context of all the messages in this set. Does it possibly add a missing element? Does the guidance and encouragement in these messages help you feel more empowered to overcome your fears?